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Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 15, 2009

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baby-121At the end of my trip in China, at Phillip Hayden Foundation, I ended up getting a very bad cold. Because many of the children and Sharon were in a hospital and many of the children were very sick, I was told I couldn’t be at the hospital. It is funny what God does to protect us, I was already concerned about leaving these children and not wanting to be heart-broken and prayed for God to protect my heart.

Philipipians 4:7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Well the fact that I got sick did protect my heart, I never was able to hold Sharon and say goodbye and I knew she was there and God has her in his hands. I was there for a few days and was able to still play, hold and minister to those children who were more healthy. God showed me all ages of orphans, not just babies, but 4, 5, 6, 13, 14, and 18 year olds.

When I got off that plane I was ready to be home, ready to be with my kids and husband, ready to share my experience and love for these  kids. I was still figuring out what God wanted me to do, or as a family to do. We could support a child financially, or support PHF financially, pray, or adopt. What was God trying to show me. I finally was back home and I shared my love for these children to those all around me, but didn’t share my heart, for adoption.  I had friends from the trip telling my husband that I would have taken Sharon home if they would’ve let me and I did say yes I would have.

But I thought I had hidden my heart and soul, how could I explain how I felt if I wasn’t sure. I wasn’t sure how to say it, how to put it in words, if God wanted this for us, how would Michael feel about this. I always felt it wouldn’t be fair to a spouse if  someone came home from Africa and said God is calling us there, without the other person  feeling the same call.

I did go through a hard time coming home, I was changed and still am. How can you not hold those babies and be changed. God is amazing and powerful, he is enough, to change my stubborn, afraid to change mindset. We were de-briefed when we came home and had a chance to share to the mission board, the things that we experienced and how God changed our views, even about the people and things we had thought about the culture.

I had people around me saying what’s wrong with you, are you ok. That was fine for a while but very annoying after a while. It’s a shame that people all over the world are praying for God to change them and when he does people think you are depressed or just don’t know what to do with you.

Matthew 18:3   And he said: I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven

Other people that have been on mission trips understand this change and don’t get me wrong, I was telling people that I am all right but haven’t figured out everything that God is doing in me. Sometimes when God changes us, it is a gradual thing, it may be a revealing of his heart in a situation, little by little and step by step. But  if he wants a true change, it won’t just be a passing thing, it will be hard. It will be hard to explain, it may change friendships, life, your family, your desires, your comfort, everything. Everything that you put importance to or thought you were.

I just want to be one who is obedient to what God is calling us to.

John 14:15  If you love me, you will obey what I command.

Philippians 2:13  For it is God who works in you  to will and to act according to his good purpose.

More to come later!

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Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 5, 2009

img_0217This is Diana holding little Tristan at Phillip Hayden Foundation. He is one of the little babies there, that have cleft lip. He was such a happy baby, who jumped like crazy in his little jumper seat and always smiled his big silly grin.

Just a baby who wants and needs love. These kids had our hearts wrapped around their little fingers. We wanted to hold and be with them as much as we could every day.

 We witness a miracle every time a child enters into life.
But those who make their journey home across time & miles,
growing within the hearts of those who wait to love them,
are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us
by God’s very own hands.
— Kristi Larson

God can change our hearts instantly, radically different, to show us his heart and to direct our lives. I know without a doubt, that he is the one orchestrating all this change in me and my heart. I also know that it was very evident that he was doing things to me, changing me. Never would I say that I would want another child, I thought that our family was complete. That to have children in our home again, they would be our grandchildren.

Well, never say never. When God wants you to step out, he will do the work, he will be the one in charge. My husband and I have prayer to be changed, well God answers prayers. It was hard coming back home, even though after two weeks, I was missing my family very much.

For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will.  Ephesians 1:4,5

 

More to come later!

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” February 25, 2009

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So this is Sharon that I am holding at Phillip Hayden Foundation, she is 9 months old and so sweet.

I started noticing  my thoughts being about her during the day. There were many days that we were so busy touring and also doing projects for the directors of PHF, that we didn’t get to see the kids. I think we all felt this, we wanted to spend as much time with these kids as possible. We were starting to get used to the kids and nannies, and learning how to approach them. The kids and nannies were getting used to us being around also.

At first when we visited the rooms filled with the kids, there were always nannies with us. But very soon, we noticed they would all be gone, they were getting ready to feed the kids or put them down. We were trusted with their children, they could see the love we had for these kids, in the way we played, held and ministered to them.

I still felt the nannies eyes on us. I also, was very careful to always ask if I could pick up Sharon or one of the other kids. To show my respect and knowing that they were their mommies, that I would be leaving in a few weeks and maybe wouldn’t be there again.

Looking back at my journal when I was there, I was already feeling a change in my thoughts on adoption. I have three daughters, 21, 18 and almost 15. For many years now, I have felt no calling to have another child. I held our last, like she was our last. I have worked in the nursery at church and loved it but never felt like I was supposed to have another child. My sister also adopted a boy around 9 years ago and once again, felt like wow I’m so glad our girls are older. All this time being around little ones, I felt complete, I felt like our family was complete, and was happy to hand back a child to it’s mother.

But God has another plan for our family, it started to take root in China. Also knowing and wondering how can I tell my husband this. What will he think, I was already praying for God’s wisdom and asking him to speak to Michael and open and change his heart like he had been doing to me. I was past the financial, age, time  and all those issues when you consider having a child. I knew God was birthing something new in my heart.

Phillippians 2:13  For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

Stay tuned, more to come later!

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Pequeno pie “Little Feet” January 30, 2009

baby-2As of the last post I wrote about the mission trip to Phillip Hayden. I held, played, laughed, prayed and had my heart changed by these amazing children. I was there for two weeks, loving on them and missing them so much when we were doing other things.

There is a little boy named Tristan, that has a cleft lip.. He is such a happy baby. He would swing in the swing, in the nursery and it would really get going. He smiled and would have his whole fist in his mouth.. Just a baby that has a defect, that wants to be wanted. He needs to be needed. That needs to be loved and love.

Kennedy is a little boy who sat in a stroller all the time with a very large head… He was so sweet and very quickly we all cared and loved this little boy. One day he was in his room with his nanny and Diana (another missionary on the trip) and I, went in there. Very quickly he started singing to us in chinese. Diana was clapping her hands with his inside of hers.. It touched both of our hearts so heavy.

Both of these boys may be adopted, they may not. It depends on the government, even if a family falls in love with these boys, it’s the governments decision. I would have taken both of these boys home with me, if I could have. The nannies show these children so much love. They are their mommies in every sense of the way. The nannies take care of them, feed them, play with them, put them down to sleep and love them, just like a mommy would.

There is hope for these two precious boys. There is hope for them to get the surgeries their bodies need and hope for a family. A family that God has called for them to adopt. To not be stopped by the economy, by any of those things. To know that there are children that just need to be loved. If every Christian adopted there would be no orphans. Jesus adopted us, in our sin, knowing that we were dirty and sinful. He loves us so much.

Here is Phillip Hayden’s website, for $35.00 a month you can sponsor one of these beautiful precious babes, one of these miracle wonders of God.

“Whoever recieves one such child in my name recieves me.” Matthew —18:5

http://www.chinaorphans.org/

More to come later!

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” January 29, 2009

baby-1Well I guess I should start telling how God started this all… I Went to a mission trip at the end of October 08, to Phillip Hayden foundation, in China.. Phillip Hayden is near beijing, it’s about an hour away. They have many children that are adopted out, some of  them have cleft lip, cerebral palsy, heart conditions and are awaiting surgery.

China has a one child policy and boys are much more wanted than girls.. So having a child with a medical issue is greatly not wanted.. Many of the female babies are just given up, and they are perfectly normal.

Well needless to say my heart ached for these children. At many orphanages there is one worker to many children. The children end up not being held like they require. There is over 15 million orphans in China and approximately 40,000 orphanages. Two in five babies entering the system die.

China is a country that has their culture being a family unit. The whole family helps financially to feed, cloth and live. The grandparents watch their son and daughter in-laws children, while the parents work and make the money for the whole family.

Another problem is that 14 year old children that are orphans, are unadoptable. They don’t have the family unit to live, they have no skills and most end up on the streets.

Phillip Hayden is building a place to give them skills, whether it’s to be a nanny there or something else. How can they live with out skills or this family unit? They have no options.

More to come later!