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Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 28, 2011

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Today I went to church, it’s been quite a while, since Aubrey’s work schedule and so many bad nights with Abby. I think also I was working some stuff out in my mind also. Some hurt that I needed to work through. I had listened to our Pastor on-line speak about healing and was encouraged to let by gones, be by gones. To pull up my big girl pants and move on, to where God is leading me. To let go of the past, forgive and forget, to know that God is leading us down this path. The band played Everything, it was so moving, full of freedom.

And how can I stand here with You

And not be moved by You

Would you tell me how could it be

Any better than this

 Our Pastor preached on 1 Corinthians 12, about the gifts of the body. He also asked us to seek God on what those gifts may be. I know for a fact that God has moved me into having a passion for these lost orphans, the abused children, needing a safe place to rest. I know that whether we foster in the future or not, I have a purpose. To show others the love they can give, to prove through my actions, how a mother’s love is so pure. That if they are going through infertility or have their children already, that they have more love to give and how it can happen.

Abby is almost 18 mos old, I can’t believe how much she has grown. She is a happy, spunky little thing, keeps us hopping to keep up with her. We can’t imagine our lives with out her, she is just like our other girls, ingrained in our hearts, mind and home. She loves to hear music and dance, she does the cutest little bootie moves. She grabs our finger and runs us here and there. When she does something naughty, like grabbing my glasses or something like that,  she gives us the sweetest smile, with her big white teeth, that your heart melts.

 I was looking in my toddler book for discipline techniques for Abby and read this really cute snapshot of a 18 mos old. It says “An 18-month-old child resembles a bull in a china shop. And you will get your share of exercise in the name of damage control. He will continually test your patience as he demands more autonomy.” This made Michael and I both laugh, because it is a very clear picture of our little Abby.

At the same time, she is the sweetest little baby. She will just come up to you and give you a kiss or lay her head on you. Abby loves to laugh and her laugh is very deep and comes from her belly. She loves getting her teeth brushed and puts her hand in her mouth and mimics it all the time. Such joy!

“My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.” Psalm 62:7

More to come later!


Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 21, 2011

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Such a simple word but it is so profound, it has so many meanings to so many people. For us this word is such a surprise, to be surprised by how much love it had in it. This one day out of my life, is one of the most special and wonderful days in my life. Of course there are many days like this, like the day you walk down the aisle to your husband, when your children are born, or your grandchildren, weddings and so much more.

Last blog post I spoke about foster care and I welcome anyone who has questions to contact me. I feel like I want to be a voice out there for God and for those women and men, who want a child so bad, but for some reason can’t. Maybe it’s infertility, maybe they are single and just cant’ wait to give a child some love or maybe they are feeling like we did. God is speaking to them about these beautiful children, who deserve love and a home.

This post I want to focus on adoption, there are many types of adoptions. There is so much info on the web and at different agencies it can be mind-boggling. I will write about our adoption, it was a foster/adopt. Which means we fostered Abby in our home while we waited to adopt her. Since we went through all the fingerprinting and all of that for our foster license, we didn’t have to do that for the adoption. We did have an Adoption packet, just asking information about our family and there was also a form we had to fill out with what sex we wanted, age and if any learning disabilities.

 This was very hard to say no to some children, but I think it’s important to know yourself and some issues we just didn’t feel like we were prepared for. Plus if you have other children in your home, it’s important to figure out what they can handle too. The adoption costs for us, through Catholic social services, were so minimal it’s scary that there aren’t more of these adoptions. I think people just aren’t aware, it cost us $250 in court fees, which included Abby’s new birth certificate. I hope I have been an instrument to stir up in your heart the love of these children, whether to foster care, adopt or support an organization.

“Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.” 1 Peter 2:2-3

More to come later!


Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 14, 2011

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Abby is now 17 months old, she is such a sweet baby. I can’t believe how quickly time has gone by. In the last few weeks I’ve had a few calls from the agency to place children in our home, the first was a one year old, who had gotten shot in the behind from her 11-year-old sibling, the second was an infant boy, addicted to drugs. My heart is breaking for both of these children, and it’s becoming harder and harder, to say no.

I know my own limations and with Abby being under two, I have to follow that knowing inside of me. Abby is at the age, that at times she goes to the kitchen drawer, opens it, then goes to the next thing we are constantly saying no to, and then right back to the drawer. She is very active and she is very curious, which makes a momma crazy at times.

This is completely normal for her age and I’m so relieved that everything seems normal, she had no prenatal, so of course even though it can be tiring, especially if we have had a rough night but at the same time I’m so thankful. The agency did speak to me about having them come into our church, because they need more foster families. Since I can’t foster at this time, it feels good to know I could be a part of this, and hope that people who read this blog can either have their own hearts stirred or could pass it on to someone who has infertility problems, is looking into adoption or just realizes they have more love to give.

After speaking about all this to Dennis, our good friend, he said how about explaining some of the things we went through to foster/adopt.

So to foster you have to get a license from the state to be foster parents. We had to have so many hours of training, which Catholic social services provided, free of charge. After we completed that, and I think we did that in two or three  Saturdays, we then were given a ton of paperwork. After we completed that, the home study began, no cost to us. We had a home inspection, which if we had anything to fix they would let us know. Everyone over 18 had to get a police clearance, which cost $20.00 per person. The agency also had all adults get fingerprinted, which once again, cost nothing. Everyone in the house had to get a physical and a tb test and all animals had to be up to date on shots.

 Also once the child is placed, you have to either have a crib or bed for the child. It took about 6 months for us to get our license. It seemed like it took forever and I had to really work on being patient. When you look at how many people wait years and years to adopt children from other countries or have infertility issues, 6 months really isn’t long at all. The foster care system pays so much every month, to pay for clothes, diapers or whatever the child needs. Also when Abby was on formula we were able to take her to wik. Also they give you an insurance card, so you don’t pay for doctor visits or prescriptions. So with this economy, even if you can’t afford another child, maybe if you foster, the state will pay for their expenses, to make it more affordable for you. To help one of these wounded beautiful babies, that just needs love and a safe place.  I will go more into the adoption next week.

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

More to come!


Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 7, 2011

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A few years ago, Lizzy started getting sick a lot. I noticed a pattern to it, where she would run a temperature and then be fine after she was on antibiotics. But as soon as the medicine was all used up after 10 days, she would start getting sick again. She was seeing a pediatrician through all of it. We ended up going to an ear, nose and throat and an allergist. They both could not find a thing and we decided to get a second opinion, once again nothing.

At some point the pediatrician brought in another parent, and tried to have this other mother, tell me how much her child was sick and was at the doctor almost monthly. I remember at one point, Michael even questioned me. I knew something was wrong, I just knew. There was a pattern and I saw it and even though they couldn’t figure it out, I knew something wasn’t right.

When Aubrey was a baby, from the very beginning she constantly had ear infections. I began to know her symptoms and knew once again, she has another one. Most of the time I was right and she eventually had hearing loss and had to get her tonsils out and we thought she may need ear tubes. Since her surgery, she was just like any other kid.

This was completely different, Lizzy was never sick. Not until this started happening. Anyway, I remember questioning myself, I’m not really sure but I remember talking to either my sister Debbie or Michael’s sister Barb and explaining the pattern and me asking am I crazy or something. It was really even causing Lizzy to miss so much school too.

Well I finally decided to go back to the ear, nose and throat, that did Aubrey’s surgery. Within 10 minutes, he found the problem, she had holes in her tonsils. Food would get stuck in there and then it would start an infection. Tonsils out, back to a normal kid, sick once in a while with colds, and flu. Moms always know! Sometimes we have an intuition about things, or people, that can’t be explained. I really believe sometimes we just know, what we know.

“(Praise to the Lord)Lord, you are my God; I will exalt you and praise your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, things planned long ago.” Isaiah 25:1

More to come later!