Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 21, 2010
This week has been another full of firsts and such exciting news. March 5th we received our foster care license, we even received a copy of it in the mail. I could hardly keep my feet planted on the floor, I was so happy and excited to finally reach this point. After so many ups and downs and at times seemed so long a time to wait.
This past week we also had two meetings, one with the baby’s case worker to get the baby transferred into our home, as our foster child. It was amazing to look at this meeting and see Tiffany handing this baby over to our house. To see Gabby, Abby’s big sister reaching out to me, wanting me when it was over. My words don’t contain how Michael and I felt and still feel. We are actually here, at this place that we have yearned for, for so long.
Our second meeting was with the adoption worker and even though I was so nervous, we were very quickly, put at ease. Everything that I worried about, was not even a concern, trying to get teenagers to clean their room can be quite interesting at times.
To see Michael, daddy acting just like he did with his girls, mooching his face right up into her, makes me know that God has opened up both of our hearts, minds and souls, to accept this little girls as our own.
On Tuesday March 23, Abby will be officially our foster care child. Every day she will be in our home, in our live, in our hearts.
Also in 6 months she will be our adopted daughter. Yahoo!!!!!
How amazing, we are there, we have gotten through this time. We are rejoicing and thanking and praising God for everything he has done and continues to do. I remember while we were taking our foster care classes in Sept., Michael of course saying we could have our child by Christmas, I was thinking by Easter.
Our mission is to raise this child, love her and be her parents. We feel so honored and privileged to be hand-picked for this child. I believe all along God had her picked out for us, for us to end up with more than a child but to end up with more family. We can’t wait to meet all the people who had a part in Tiffany and Gabby’s life. That supported Tiffany taking on this child, until we could. I can’t wait to meet Mrs. Maclain, who watched Abby while Tiffany was at work. Her hands and love have made this child to be who she is today. I also thank Tiffany for believing in us, for listening to her own heart, for knowing and seeing the love that was growing in us. For holding, loving and taking care of Abby while we were waiting to get our license. But most of all I thank God that he trusts us enough.
James 1:17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
More to come later!
Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 15, 2010
Tiffany, Gabby, Abby and I all went to our very first, mom 2 mom sale. Gosh it was a huge sale with tons of baby and toddler toys and clothing. I found tons of cute clothes for Abby in 6 month sizes and bought some toys and baby gear also. This picture is of her on one of our new items to keep her happy, she seems to like it very much and can get some tummy time too.
I really wish when my girls were babies they had sales like this. I have found many types of stores also that sell used baby clothes, toys and gear. Babies wear some outfits so little anyways and the stuff looks brand new. It was a wonderful day watching our two little girls having fun in the double stroller. Abby was so cute watching Gabby and Gabby was so sweet with her little sister.
Tiffany and I are excited to go to the next one in May, I definitely won’t miss that. On Thursday this week we have our first visit with the adoption worker, she is going to talk to us about all the details. We are so excited, little Abby could be our adopted daughter in 6 months. I’m not as stressed about this or in a hurry since we have her in our house everyday.
Abby is increasingly getting used to us all, she loves playing with her daddy. She also loves her time with her big sisters. Beka stops by every few days and right away wants to know if Abby is up from her nap. Abby is growing right before our eyes, pretty soon she will be in the next set of clothes. Before we know it she will be a toddler but we are enjoying every new thing that she does.
Psalm 145:7 (NIV)
They will celebrate your abundant goodness and joyfully sing of your righteousness.
More to come later!
Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 8, 2010
It’s been over a year since I went to China on a mission trip and fell in love with baby Sharon and had my whole life changed. Before I left, Michael and I prayed together, for God to change me radically. He certainly did that, he showed me a path that I never had even seen or thought for ourselves and then Michael also.
About six months ago we started our foster care classes and had stopped looking to adopt from another country, we were looking at children in our own backyard. We were again following a different path, God shut one door and opened up another. Looking back it seems like it took forever, but six months is so quick.
We received a call from the agency this past friday, letting us know that we would either get our license then or by Monday. I was given a website to enter our license number in and when it was active, we would know. I put it in a few times on friday and stopped around 6pm, thinking that we would have to wait till Monday.
We had made plans to have Dennis and Sharon over Saturday evening and I right away felt, I wish we could celebrate getting our license now, instead of waiting till we see them the next time. Not even thinking, just acting on a whim, I entered that number in on Saturday morning and was so shocked to see, ACTIVE on friday, March 5th. Yahoo! This part of the wait is over.. We are licensed… and we were able to celebrate.. I finally let myself jump up and down.
I think it’s only right to put both of these pictures up, of Dennis holding both of the babies that I love. Sharon and our little Abby. Dennis was a part of seeing God change my heart, he held baby Sharon and knew and saw how I felt. After coming home from China, both Dennis and his wife Sharon were so supportive to us and our family. They are true friends, being there with you in good times and bad. They held my hand in my frustrations, fear, worry, and the waiting. I am so thankful to Abby’s Uncle Dennis and Aunt Sharon.
There have been so many people, friends and family that have been so supportive. Thank you!
Little Abby is back with Tiffany for the last visit and will be home with us again on Wednesday, and will never have to leave our house again. We are so ready to have her full-time, every day, morning, noon and night. It is still hard to say goodbye to our little precious one but this visit feels different. We know she will grow up in our home as our daughter.
Both Tiffany and us are looking forward to B-day parties, picnics, and zoo trips with these two sisters. We are already planning on going to a mom to mom sale. Not only will Abby have 4 sisters but Tiffany and I have each other now too. We are like sisters raising these two little girls, so we are Aunties..
1Chronicles 16:34 Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.
Pequenopie “Little Feet” March 1, 2010
Today we had to run over to the agency and sign our paperwork again. We were starting to feel like we were receiving the run around or some lies. We went to the agency upset and worried. Thankfully during our time there, God made some awesome things happen. We saw proof that the state sent back our paperwork, for one little box not checked for Aubreys’ marital status. So now we felt better about things. Then Brandan started talking about how upset he was that they sent our paperwork back, instead of just calling him directly. He continued to say that we have a baby to get settled in your house, which started the tears.
Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it. ~Albert Smith
He then showed his heart, here I had started thinking he doesn’t care about us or what is best for little Abby. He went on to tell us she will be ours, that it’s so great to keep these two little sisters together. Everything that we have been feeling all along. To get confirmation from him was icing on the cake. I was able to show my feelings and heart to him also, a mother’s love for a precious little girl. I really don’t feel a difference between the love I feel for the girls I bore and Abby. She did not grow in my body or hear my heart beat. I did not gain weight and carry her for nine months. My feelings of love and being her mom, are just as strong. It’s so amazing how God makes us, our emotions and our ability to love without question.
It sounds like we will receive our foster care license by the middle of March, so just a few weeks more. We also will continue to have little Abby with us this next week. I am hoping and praying that we receive a call and little Abby will be home with us from now on. We will continue to trust in him and rely on him.
My sister sent me these lyrics and it reminded us both of some of the struggles we endure with our daughters. My sister commented also on our family starting all over again too.
Sweet Angel of mine
AS YOU LAY SLEEPING ON MY CHEST
A MILLION THOUGHTS RUN THROUGH MY HEAD
SOMEDAY YOU’LL THINK THAT YOU’RE TOO BIG TO HOLD
YOU’LL SPILL MILK ON MY FAVORITE DRESS
FALL DOWN AND SCARE ME TO DEATH
AND YOU’LL REFUSE TO DO ANYTHING YOU’RE TOLD
AND I’LL BE SO MAD THAT I’M ALMOST IN TEARS
AND YOU’LL SMILE THAT SMILE AND THEY’LL ALL DISAPPEAR
YES SOMETIMES YOU’LL HIDE YOUR PERFECT WINGS
BUT THROUGH THESE EYES ALL I’LL EVER SEE
IS THAT SWEET ANGEL OF MINE
I WON’T BE READY FOR FIRST GRADE
OR WHEN YOU GO ON YOUR FIRST DATE
AND YOU’LL THINK THAT I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND
AND I KNOW THAT THERE’LL COME A DAY
WHEN YOU START TO PUSH ME AWAY
AND I’LL FEEL LIKE I’M LOSING MY BEST FRIEND
SO WHEN YOU WANT TO BE OUT ON YOUR OWN
FORGIVE ME IF I FIND IT HARD TO LET GO
YEAH SOMEDAY YOU’LL SPREAD YOUR PERFECT WINGS
BUT NO MATTER WHERE YOU FLY YOU’LL ALWAYS BE
THAT SWEET ANGEL OF MINE
AND I KNOW I’LL CRY ON YOUR WEDDING DAY
AS I WATCH YOUR FATHER GIVE YOU AWAY
AND I’LL BOW MY HEAD, PRAY YOU FIND ALL YOUR DREAMS
AND THANK GOD FOR EVERY DAY HE’S GIVEN ME
THAT SWEET ANGEL OF MINE