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Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 30, 2009

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pic 5These are my two oldest girls, they are both growing up so fast, right before our eyes. I remember being a stay at home mom and so happy to get some, me time, when they started school. Now they are both going on their journey of womanhood. Each making decisions, whether it’s what they are going to do in school and work, to what boy they are going to date, or for my oldest, marry.

My husband and I are already feeling that empty nest syndrome, many nights we are at home with just our youngest. Which is awesome to have our youngest talk with us and not to have the oldest two constantly interupting her, but it is different. I’ve always said when you have your kids, no one gives you a parent book when you leave the hospital.

Each and everyone has his or her own personality, their own quirkiness, their own ideals and beliefs. None of them come with directions, like when they are teens and they do this, you should discipline them like this. We experienced this when our oldest Beka was little we disciplined her in certain ways and it usually worked pretty well. Well when we had our second child, she was very strong-willed, which at the time could be difficult. Aubrey was harder to discipline, but she was a sweet naughty girl at times. We loved them both the same but we had two girls, who are different.

God made us all special and unique, not one of us is alike. When I was a teenager I was best friends with  twins, they looked so much alike but were so different. They may have resembled each other but their gifts and personality were like night and day.

My friend Sharon came over this week with her two grandchildren and it was so nice to be around little ones. Sharon babysits them a few times a week, so it was nice to chat to her about her patience and stuff with them. These things are on my mind, with us wanting to adopt. Michael are I are older now and even though we have been parents for over 20 years, I guess you wonder how it will feel to start over, whether our child will be 1 or 4.

I have been pondering how I felt in China with these orphans and how you react to your nieces and nephews and babies around you. I think when Sharon came over, both of those children have a mommy and daddy. The children that I feel in love with have no parents, no siblings, no one that is planning a future for them.

I have held and comforted babies in the nursery at our church. I have watched and babysat my nieces and nephews, but their mommies and daddies were getting them in the morning. So I believe this is where the difference is. I have pondered how our live will change, will we be able to go to North Carolina again and stay on the beach for our family vacation? How much patience will I have or not? Will Michael and I regret our decision?

There are so many questions but when I look at my heart, I know. I know the answer, it will be hard. This will be our child, just like when a new baby comes home from the hospital and has croup, yes the parents may be sleep deprived but I’m sure most parents would know this is just a season. Just like when my parents caught me smoking or lieing, they loved me enough to discipline me. They didn’t give up on me, never ever.

Thank you for always loving me no matter what!

I also saw the way I want to be with my grand kids, to enjoy them, to savour every precious second. I loved what Sharon told me, that she has good days and bad, isn’t that the way it is with all parents. Even now with three beautiful ornery girls, 15, 18 and 21 we all have good days and bad days.

 I already see that our adopted child may already have some children to get together for play dates. So Sharon I look forward to going to the park and finding fun things for us to do together.

But the endless possibilities and reasons for adopting, far out way my fears. This child just wants a family and home, we have that. They need clothes, shelter, food, and safety. They need a place that is theirs, a life of their own, a future. Most of all they want love.

Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   1 cor 13:4

Love never fails. 1 cor 13:8

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 27, 2009

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I tiptoed into your room one night.
I watched you sleeping there.
Your tiny body looked so snug
Wrapped in peaceful slumber’s care.

I thought of how you came to be
The child we’d longed to know.
I wondered at the sight of you:
“How could she let you go?”

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I
Felt the pain she must have known.
For I will have to let you go
Some day when you are grown.

A mother I might never meet
Had given me her son.
Yet, surely as you’ve filled my heart,
A piece of hers you’d won.

“How could she let you go?”
The question kept returning.
And in the depths of my own heart.
A question kept on burning.

“How can I ever let you go
When years have come and gone?”
I stood there by your crib until
The nighttime turned to dawn.

And as the sun peeked through the shades,
The voice of God broke through.
“I trusted her to give him life
And now I’m trusting to you.

“To show him what is right and wrong,
to love him and to be
The one who teaches him the way
To come back home to me.

“He wasn’t hers to give, you know.
And he’s not yours to own.
I’ve placed him in your life to love
But he is mine … on loan.”

by Valerie Kay Gwin

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 17, 2009

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I’ve been struck with the many changes our family has encountered within the last six months. God has done so many changes in us and growth, that I look back and am shocked to see it. At the same time, we have so much freedom. We are enjoying these days we spend with our children. With our oldest it is twinkling of the eye, since she is getting married next year.  With our middle child it is precious moments , pretty soon she will be going to college, working and spending time out of our house. With our youngest we still have some time to make up. We were so busy and consumed with our ministry work, neglecting what we had at home. Even our extended families and our quiet time. It wasn’t until our girls sat us down, that we really took a hard look at our lives and said what the heck are we doing.

Since that we have realized that above else family should come first. Our girls come first, spending time with them, talking to them, just watching a movie with them. Laughing, crying, praying, life as God wanted it. He made families to be together, to break bread together. How sometimes we can put our jobs, our ministries, our everything above our family.

To have my sister tell me I’m glad you are back, that hurts. I promise myself, my family, God and those around me that I will never let this happen again. Taking that hard look, put everything in perspective. When I came back from China this last time,I knew something wasn’t right with our lives. I saw how stressed my husband was working a full-time job and then rushing off after a quick dinner. To have the time to have a nice dinner every night is so amazing, to sit and read a book, or watch a movie, together.

Obviously when we were in the thick of things we couldn’t see it. But when I came back from China I knew that our lives would have to change, how could we adopt a baby and be out almost every night. Not going to happen and not fair to our youngest to babysit every night.

Since getting a baby kitten I remember so much of what it takes to be a new mother and father again. Constantly having patience, correcting  that child. Our girls were into everything, your eyes always had to be on them. Touching things, putting things into their mouth, and a constant stream of No’s.. 

Teaching them manners, how to swim, how to ride a bike, everything. They learn everything from us. Keeping them safe, out of the street, teaching them rules, don’t touch that, don’t open that. Right now with our teens we are teaching them still, how to be young women, who will one day be wifes and mothers themselves. It is a big job but that is the duty we are entrusted with.

So while we continue on the passage, we will continue to enjoy everyday we have with our family and friends. We will continue to wait for this child that God has implanted on our hearts. This child that is so wanted and loved, even now.

Healing does not mean going back to the way things were before,
but rather allowing what is now to move us closer to God
— Ram Dass

Leave comments or scripture, would love to hear from you!

More to come later!

 

May 14, 2009

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The man whispered, “God, speak to me” and a Chickadee sang.
  But, the man did not hear.
So the man yelled “God, speak to me!” And, the thunder rolled across the sky.
  But, the man did not listen.
The man looked around and said, “God let me see you.” And a star shined brightly.
  But the man did not notice.
And, the man shouted, “God show me a miracle!” And, a life was born.
  But, the man did not know.
So, the man cried out in despair, “Touch me God, and let me know you are here!”
Whereupon, God reached down and touched the man.
  But, the man brushed the butterfly away and walked on.
Don’t miss out on a blessing because it isn’t packaged the way that you expect.
author unknown
 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 9, 2009

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It’s Mother’s Day weekend and in the United States we celebrate this special day and give tribute and honor to our Mother’s. I was surprised and didn’t realize that this great day was started in 1870 and a lady named Julia Ward Howe wrote a poem called Mother’s Day Proclamation of 1870. It was a call for disarmament and for women to come together to seek diplomatic ways to settle disagreements among Nations.

As I found this awesome picture of a Mother in Thailand I see other things. In Mother’s all over the world I see strength, love, truth, honor, integrity, and kindness. There are so many things to say about our Mother’s. They take on so much, they have to put others before themselves, there will be heartache. There is so much to prepare a child to walk into their own lives dependent of their moms. They get very little sleep when their child is a baby, they rock and cuddle that baby. I remember being in the Hospital after having Beka, my first child and hardly being with her and when the nurses were bringing all the babies to the mommies, and recognizing her cry. I knew that was her and it was, that God has given us a miracle to be a mom.

I also think of the millions of mom’s who can’t have their own children, from their own bodies. But if you see a Mother who has adopted a child, you would have no idea that, that child didn’t come from her body. My sister shows that clear as day, her little boy and her are Mother and son. That’s it, no difference between her daughter, that did come from her. They are both her children, that she loves with all her heart, body and soul. That she will worry about, have joy, concern and so much more.

No matter what country you live in, no matter what conditions you live in, Mothers are all the same. 

They love without expectation, without expecting anything back.

A friend in China that has been going through the adoption process for 4 1/2 years, just sent a letter,  telling everyone that by Fall she will be a Mother. What an awesome Mother’s Day gift for this year. After all her patience, tears, waiting, joy and hope she will be a Mother soon. The wait is almost over.

On this Mother’s Day, I hope and pray that the child our family wants to adopt, will not take too long to come to us. I hope and pray that maybe by the next Mother’s Day of 2010 we will be that much closer to bringing our child home. That once that child is put in my arms, the difference of my children and this new child will melt away. I pray for patience, for joy and peace through this whole thing. That we would trust in our Lord with all our heart and mind. That when it seems too difficult, too expensive, to hard, we would continue to look at what God has planted in our lives. That he is enough, he will do what he wishes.. That I can lean on him for my strength, my joy and my peace.

Ask and it will be give to you, seek and you will find,

knock and the door will be opened to you.

For everyone who asks will receives, he who seeks finds,

and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matthew 7:7-8

So our family will continue to ask, seek and knock and wait on his timing, and will.

More to come later  and have a Happy Mother’s Day!

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 7, 2009

nepal-fb1 Lately I have been  having times of  doubt and really not having as much patience as I should have. I have looked at how much money we are going to need for this adoption and it feels so overwhelming. I realize that this economy is not good, people are loosing jobs and their houses right and left. I also know that Michael and I can’t do this on our own, that we need support. 

I feel so ready to get this process going, it’s been 6 long months since I got home from China. If feels like 6 years or a lifetime. When you are ready for this, it’s all you can think about. Sometimes I have such a huge amount of faith and all around me I see this is possible, that God will do this for us. But other times I have doubt and fear and questions. I know God has put this in my heart and I know it is true. I feel the same as I did 6 months ago and if anything I feel stronger about it.

 

I know it is going to be hard, difficult and life changing. Bringing any child into your world is earth shattering. I remember being a new mom of Beka and only being 22, not knowing who this child was. I knew she was ours, I loved  her already. But no one gives you a pamphlet with instructions on how to be a good mommy or daddy. You are on your own, you are blending two sets of ideas into one. I am thankful that Michael and I have always supported each other in this life and journey.

I have to remember that even though I’m not pregnant, this is our pregnacy, to prepare and enjoy this time. To trust God that he will move heaven and earth to make what he wants happen. That by ourselves nothing can happen without him. To just have faith in him, he has worked out everything so far. Why would I stop trusting him now. The Finish Line is before us and we just need to pace ourselves to reach it, in his time and way.

 

 

A child to pour our love on…We have that to give.    

 

 

Pour My Love On You                                                    

 

I don’t know how to say exactly how I feel
And I can’t begin to tell you what your love has meant
I’m lost for words
Is there a way to show the passion in my heart
Can I express how truly great I think you are
You’re my dearest friend

Lord this is my desire to pour my love on you    

        CHORUS:
Like oil upon your feet
Like wine for you to drink
Life water from my heart
I pour my love on you
With praises like the perfume
I lavish mine on you
Till every drop is gone
I pour my love on you 

 Is there a way to show the passion in my heart
Can I express how truly great I think you are,
My dearest friend 

Lord this is my desire to pour my love on you

CHORUS

By Phillips , Craig and Dean

 

 I am writing this blog to thank all my numerous friends and family, who encourage me and tell me to take tiny steps like my blog, that God will give us provision, that God is making us wait for the child God wants for us and all the prayers that so many are sending our way.. Thank You….

 

More to come later!

 

Pequenopie “Little Feet” May 3, 2009

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nepal_1_061Last night I watched Slumdog Millionaire and was shocked by the things that the children in the movie lived with. The conditions that they lived in.

How when they lost both parents, they were tricked into a life of panhandling, how young girls were put into the sex slave trade.

Slums-  a thickly populated, run-down, squalid part of a city, inhabited by poor people.

32% of the World’s Urban population live in slums.             

43% of developing Countries live in slums.

78% of the least developed countries live in slums.

6% of city dwellers in the rich world live in slum like conditons.

In the next 30 years the number of slum dwellers will increase to 2 billion.

One in Four developing countries prevents women from owning land or having mortgages in their own names.

An estimate of 1 billion people live in slums.

 

This is staggering, that there are people and children that live like this is 2009. These people have many sicknesses and many have a hard time of getting fresh water and food. These people suffer from illnesses of dysentary, tuberculosis, typhoid, malaria, dengue fever, parasites and maternal and childhood problems.

In Delhi the government provides antenatal care and facilities for safe delivery of babies, many women in slums either can’t afford to travel to receive this care , or are discouraged from leaving the slums by their families. As a result , the mortality rate is the highest in the world, with 54 women dying out of every 1000 who give birth. Untrained midwifes are unaware of how to avoid infection and so many infants die of tetanus following the umbilical cord being severed with sharpened stones or used blades.

That babies are dieing of tetanus.. Gosh that is amazing and horrible.. I hope some of this gives us something to think about and realize how others live and gives us another focus to pray on.

 

We wanted to list our needs here on the blog to give everyone a chance to join in on this great effort to change the life of one individual forever.

Our first combined step will cost us FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS. This will cover the application fee’s and the home study.

From there we will need another TWENTY FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS to bring Baby Tacoma home from Nepal.

We are reaching out, asking for help to bring a child out of poverty in an un-Godly place to a Loving family here in the U.S.

The first $5000 is the tough part because it’s non-refundable and it cannot be donated as a tax deductible donation.

After the home study is complete we will have an account set up with the agency and we will be able to receive gifts, tax free.

Please prayerfully consider if you would like to help us out.

Leave a message in the comment box and we will contact you.

Thank you and God Bless you.

Mike and Vicki Tacoma