Pequenopie “Little Feet” October 17, 2011

It feels like fall is in the air, I actually love sweater weather and the leaves changing but I just don’t feel ready for the while stuff and the cold. Time sure does fly by, it seems like every year, I go through the motions of Christmas shopping but every year I’m just not ready. Once again I feel that way and it goes by so fast, we all shop and cook and then Christmas night, it’s over. Anyway, time marches on, whether you are ready or not.

Things have been busy and happy. This video I posted today, is of Abby, Maddie and Gabby, last weekend on Abby’s birthday party. They are so cute together, I can’t wait till the next time. Abby is constantly picking up new words, she is now calling Beka, Beta. So cute, all along we have been telling Beka and I think she thought we were just saying it but this weekend she heard it. 

Every day is a new and has wonder to it, even on those gloomy dark days, Abby gives us all such joy. She makes everyone smile and laugh, even when she has been naughty. It is hard for me, waiting for the agency to call but I just have to be patient and know that God has it all figured out. He knows all things, just like he knew we were going to end up with Abby.

When life is difficult and we don’t have any control, which we never do anyway, I can rest in him, that he knows the end. He always gets us to where we need to be. There has been many times in my life, that I can look back and see him, see his path and ways right before me. It’s hard to put your trust in the unknown and just knowing. So right now I am human, and just keep praying and trusting in him.

I know that many people are going through difficult times, all kinds of problems, their kids, marriages, losing homes, sickness, worry, more things than I could ever list. So take heart and know he sees all, knows all and will get you through those difficult times. Sometimes he has to change you, or cut things off of you, but in the end it is worth it. Sometimes we need to grow, and didn’t even realize there was something wrong.

When we left our church a few years ago, there was so much that we didn’t even see that was wrong for us and our family. It was when we took a step back, we could really see clearly.

“May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my rock and my redeemer.” Psalms 19:14

More to come later!

Pequenopie “Little Feet” October 9, 2011

Today is Abby’s 2nd Birthday, I can’t believe how time has flown by. Yesterday we celebrated not only Abby’s birthday but also it was our 1st year anniversary of adopting our precious girl. A year ago she became, legally our daughter, our little Abby. It’s amazing when I look back, at the first time I saw her, the first time I knew about her birth mother being pregnant again. All the fear and worry I experienced at first, at not knowing what would happen. Would a family member come forward, would Tiffany change her mind, all of these questions.

I remember just having to give it to God and pray about it. To lean not on my own understanding, but to lean on him. That he knew already what was going to happen and trust in him with whatever did happen. It is really hard sometimes to just jump out of your own comfort zone, to jump in with no parachute. Letting someone else worry about the ending, not having any control. Not saying that it was easy or comfortable and that I did have my moments and fears, I certainly did.

It was so cute to see Gabby, without any direction from us, do the same kinds of things Abby does. The same walking around like an eagle, pushing her stomach out and twitching her hands around, that Abby has done since she was a tiny baby. Even though these two girls don’t live in the same house or see each other every month, they do things the same. Genetically they are the same, amazing. They even have the same tone when they laugh. We really enjoyed seeing Gabby and Abby play together, it was really hard to get Abby’s attention to open her presents. She was just so happy to be around little ones like herself. She kept kissing Gabby but was being naughty trying to pull her hair at the same time.

I was so glad that my parents got to meet Jay, Tiffany’s boyfriend, and Gabby and Maddie. We consider them part of the family, our family. It’s so nice having Tiffany to talk to, since she is a young mom and we help each other out, with things we are dealing with. These are what family and friends are for, in good time, and bad,  to be together, lean on and comfort.

“It is the Lord your God you must follow, and him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey him; serve him and hold fast to him.” Deuteronomy 13:4

More to come!